i haven't seen the sun in days
around the last time i saw your face
the moon was high last night as i was longing for your touch
just thinking about your body next to mine sends me into a rush
we've waited long enough
it's time to transition from friends to lovers
tonight i want you to sleep under the covers
you've been a gentleman the whole way thru
giving me the attention, care, and romance i was missing
This time he's caressing my hips as we start kissing
hand firmly gripped around my ass and one at my waist
he whispers in my ear that he has to have a taste
he wants to jump head first into my paradise
quench his thirst with the flow of my womanhood
breast in his mouth, hands caressing my thighs
damn this man is making me feel high
pulling me closer as if he can't get enough
he asked if he could come inside, promising not to be too rough
he can't get deep enough to satisfy our desire
it's going to be a long night, i feel his fire
i climb on top to let him catch his breath
he says go slow, i want to feel every inch of your cares
pulling my hair back to see me in all my ecstasy
feeling me explode... the tension, the vibration, and then the release
We collapse and embrace
kissing and holding him, i can't take my eyes off his face
so peaceful, so serene
i've been blessed with the man of my dreams
soft and supple, allowed to be all woman
he's not going to rest until he feels cumming
adoring my paradise, but not forsaking all of me
tonight he gave me all of him that i need
i will rest here between the sheets with my king
about the night of this soft winter rain is what i will dream
Thursday, December 27, 2007
Thursday, December 20, 2007
Mahalia Jackson--How I got over LIVE
I needed a little inspiration today, this does the trick every time.... enjoy.
Friday, December 7, 2007
Brother's and Sister's
I read so much about brother's being no good jail birds who only want a white woman who will feed his ego. On the other hand there are the articles about sister being angry, weak, gold diggers who only want to put a brother on child support and harass him the rest of his life. I am really tired of reading these. Yes we do have some issues brother's and sister's. We both need to step out game and reclaim our family's. By doing that we will be able to reclaim our communities and provide an better future for our children. But, that's not the point today. Today I am making it clear that there are still many, many sister's who embrace the strength, spirit, and soul of the black man. I am one of them. I'll scream it from the top of lungs, march on Washington, and take personal conference with the "man" whose trying to keep him back. Not to mention jacking the bitch ( male or female) up who's trying to create disharmony in our home.
I sat it often, anyone past a certain age who doesn't believe that they have issue's is lying to themselves or just doesn't know what their issues are yet. So while we all have to work thru those I'm going to do my part. And I hope you will do the same. There is nothing on this planet more fierce than a black man and woman with love and a common goal. That's what love is all about. So I'll use my strong will as an asset to you. I will raise a little hell from time to time, but never to your detriment. You'll be the head of our household and I'll be your help mate. And I'll be sure that when you come in from this cold work, you'll find my love, strength, spirit, and soul fully available to you.... my man, my king, my protector, my provider, my leader, my friend.
I sat it often, anyone past a certain age who doesn't believe that they have issue's is lying to themselves or just doesn't know what their issues are yet. So while we all have to work thru those I'm going to do my part. And I hope you will do the same. There is nothing on this planet more fierce than a black man and woman with love and a common goal. That's what love is all about. So I'll use my strong will as an asset to you. I will raise a little hell from time to time, but never to your detriment. You'll be the head of our household and I'll be your help mate. And I'll be sure that when you come in from this cold work, you'll find my love, strength, spirit, and soul fully available to you.... my man, my king, my protector, my provider, my leader, my friend.
Tuesday, December 4, 2007
What Are WE Teaching Our Daughters???
A couple of weeks ago I let my 13 year old nephew have some friends over, nothing out of the norm. They hung out, played video games, did the stuff boys their age do. That evening he asked if some more friends could come over, not a problem... I'm the cool aunt. Cute little girls, but no one came in to make sure there was an adult there or anything and I didn't know these girls. They go on and do their thing, and I'm watching from a distance. After a while I check outside and to my amazement they are playing grown folks games in the pool. There is kissing and groping, really heavy petting. Needless to say I make them get out and call one of the girls mother.
I'm not that old, but at 13 or 14 when a boy felt on my booty i punched him and told my big brother, that was a violation. In Jr. High I had my little boyfriend and we snuck kisses, but not like that. I still considered my nephew to be kinda green. After all his interest are basketball, video games, big trucks, and eating... I didn't know that girls were included in that list. I guess that I'm the green one.
While we were waiting I decided to talk to the kids and let them know how disrespectful and inappropriate their actions were. I got some real insight to this era. I told my nephew and his friends how disrespectful it is to grope and feel on a woman. How tasteless it looks. And asked them how they would like it if someone treated their sister that way. My nephew told me that his sisters were not that kind of female. They wouldn't let a dude handle them like that. So if a girl is willing to let him have some fun... why shouldn't he? The question threw me for a loop, I didn't expect that response ( probably due to my lack of parenting experience ). I explained to them that the time would come when that was appropriate, but at their age none of what they were doing was cool. It should be reserved for the time in their life when they have someone special and are more mature. One of the girls then told me that she could see if a girl was doing (sexual) things to get attention or to make some boys like her, but what's wrong with doing you, if your comfortable with who you are and know what you want? So, I asked her what she wanted. They had made it clear to me that none of them were dating or boyfriend/ girlfriend... so I didn't get why they would be making out with them if they didn't like them. She told me that they just came to chill and there wasn't anything wrong with that. If that is chillin'... I been out of the game way too long
I explained to these young ladies that any guy who does not respect you, does not deserve you. And it was made clear that these young men had no respect for them. When a woman does not present herself to be the queen she is, she can't expect to be treated as such. Everyone wants to be respected, but acting like a hood rat will get you treated like a hood rat. The mother didn't like my analogy. She told me not to pass judgement on her child. I didn't, I was sad for her child. This mother didn't know me from Adam. But, still she dropped her daughter off, with friends to go and chill with 3 boys after dark at a stranger's house. No questions asked, not introductions, no investigation. What are we teaching our daughter's? I thought it was horrible that mother checked my drawers, read my letters, and interviewed every boy that came to my house to see me. I thought it was old fashion for her to tell me not to be going to a boys house and not to call him often. I didn't understand why she always told me to pay attention to what a person does and not what they say. I thank her for putting me up on game. Being pretty only gets you so far, and then beauty fades.But, it's not as simple as that. Those are life lessons. If we don't teach our daughter's how to conduct themselves we will lose another generation of children. It's time that we give our daughter's some substance, we've been missing that for far too long.
I'm not that old, but at 13 or 14 when a boy felt on my booty i punched him and told my big brother, that was a violation. In Jr. High I had my little boyfriend and we snuck kisses, but not like that. I still considered my nephew to be kinda green. After all his interest are basketball, video games, big trucks, and eating... I didn't know that girls were included in that list. I guess that I'm the green one.
While we were waiting I decided to talk to the kids and let them know how disrespectful and inappropriate their actions were. I got some real insight to this era. I told my nephew and his friends how disrespectful it is to grope and feel on a woman. How tasteless it looks. And asked them how they would like it if someone treated their sister that way. My nephew told me that his sisters were not that kind of female. They wouldn't let a dude handle them like that. So if a girl is willing to let him have some fun... why shouldn't he? The question threw me for a loop, I didn't expect that response ( probably due to my lack of parenting experience ). I explained to them that the time would come when that was appropriate, but at their age none of what they were doing was cool. It should be reserved for the time in their life when they have someone special and are more mature. One of the girls then told me that she could see if a girl was doing (sexual) things to get attention or to make some boys like her, but what's wrong with doing you, if your comfortable with who you are and know what you want? So, I asked her what she wanted. They had made it clear to me that none of them were dating or boyfriend/ girlfriend... so I didn't get why they would be making out with them if they didn't like them. She told me that they just came to chill and there wasn't anything wrong with that. If that is chillin'... I been out of the game way too long
I explained to these young ladies that any guy who does not respect you, does not deserve you. And it was made clear that these young men had no respect for them. When a woman does not present herself to be the queen she is, she can't expect to be treated as such. Everyone wants to be respected, but acting like a hood rat will get you treated like a hood rat. The mother didn't like my analogy. She told me not to pass judgement on her child. I didn't, I was sad for her child. This mother didn't know me from Adam. But, still she dropped her daughter off, with friends to go and chill with 3 boys after dark at a stranger's house. No questions asked, not introductions, no investigation. What are we teaching our daughter's? I thought it was horrible that mother checked my drawers, read my letters, and interviewed every boy that came to my house to see me. I thought it was old fashion for her to tell me not to be going to a boys house and not to call him often. I didn't understand why she always told me to pay attention to what a person does and not what they say. I thank her for putting me up on game. Being pretty only gets you so far, and then beauty fades.But, it's not as simple as that. Those are life lessons. If we don't teach our daughter's how to conduct themselves we will lose another generation of children. It's time that we give our daughter's some substance, we've been missing that for far too long.
Fresh Start
A few months ago, I decided that there needed to be some changes in my life. After all, it's our experiences in life that make us who we are. And I needed to broaden my horizons. As always I jumped in head first. When I decide to do something, I do it. I know what I want, and I figure out how to get it. As I went along on this mission I had a major revelation. I have a very good life. Sure, there are things that could be better. There are things that I wish I had done differently. But, for the most part.... Ya girl is doing very well for herself.
I have a wonderful family. When I see my grandmother in her rocker, that gives me peace. When I talk to my mother, she gives me direction. Being close to my siblings gives me strength. Watching my nieces and nephews grow gives me hope. The company of beautiful friends gives me joy. The neighborhood where I grew up and everybody knows my name, gives me comfort. My church family threw all their work, they inspire me.
Yeah, there are the places I haven't gone. The experiences I haven't had yet. The goals that I haven't accomplished, YET. The love that hasn't come along. But, I've realized, those things come in time. When I am ready for them, they will be given to me. Until then, enjoying and appreciating what I have is what's important. I've been blessed in my life, I'm thankful for my experiences. So sometimes, a fresh start is just realizing what you have.
I have a wonderful family. When I see my grandmother in her rocker, that gives me peace. When I talk to my mother, she gives me direction. Being close to my siblings gives me strength. Watching my nieces and nephews grow gives me hope. The company of beautiful friends gives me joy. The neighborhood where I grew up and everybody knows my name, gives me comfort. My church family threw all their work, they inspire me.
Yeah, there are the places I haven't gone. The experiences I haven't had yet. The goals that I haven't accomplished, YET. The love that hasn't come along. But, I've realized, those things come in time. When I am ready for them, they will be given to me. Until then, enjoying and appreciating what I have is what's important. I've been blessed in my life, I'm thankful for my experiences. So sometimes, a fresh start is just realizing what you have.
Negativity!!!!!!!!!Damn
I think that everyone knows at least one person who can bring your mood down. A person who despite all their wonderful qualities can rain on your parade. Or, it's the person who says one thing and lives another. The person who never has anything nice to say about anything or anyone, not associated with them of course. Always talking about God or serving as a role model, but they have the weed boi's # programmed in their cell phone. Don't get me wrong, I'm not knocking what anyone does. We all have faults. If you make it past 25 without any issues you were either very sheltered or don't know you have issues yet. But, who the hell died and made you queen\king of ruining my day?
Finding A Balance
I have made a few observations. With all the headlines about our slowing economy, interest rates rising, and home foreclosures at an all time high.... we in the hood are still doing our thing. Or are we? Is this just the norm for us, for every dollar of wealth that Caucasians have ... we have 15 cents. There goes the phrase, Pac was a true visionary. I can't help but to wonder though, we are the biggest consumers why don't we have more market share in this economy? I have a few theory's on this to share.
1. We are still learning the process of building wealth. It takes a few generations to build true wealth and pass on assets. There are still not enough African-American families in this position, we have a way to go there. In most instances we are only 2 maybe 3 generations into success.
2. We have different ideas of financial success. For some people success is not living from pay check to pay check. For others it's being able to afford nice things. A lot of us seem to be content with a nice place, nice ride and some nice gear. Don't forget the bling.
3. Making the sacrifice. Who really wants to bust their ass for 30 years, buy a modest house, drive the same car for 10 years, and not take a real vacation? And you know you have to get your baby that Wii and those sneaker skates for Christmas. Plus our situation is better than that of our parents. How dare we not enjoy our success.
The honest answer is we have to make sacrifices. We have a lot of issues in our community. This is one that the movement has not addressed. And I believe that we won't be able to make a real difference in our circumstances until we can sit at the table. It's not about greed or race, it's about finance. As long as they can exploit our black ass' at minimum cost.... they will. Look at the return they've gotten so far. No matter how much we want to display our "progress" in the last 30-40 years, the fact of the matter is that most of us are only a couple of steps up on the latter. And there are far too many of us still on the same step. Individual achievements are wonderful, they give us something to aspire to. But, it's past time for us to look at the models of Italian and Asian communities; after all hell we showed them. It's past time for us to unite. We have to realise that the civil rights movement has changed. We have to realise that this is a battle we have to be ready to fight on all fronts, not just in the courts. We have to be ready in the legislature and we have to be ready at the bank. We have to find a balance.
1. We are still learning the process of building wealth. It takes a few generations to build true wealth and pass on assets. There are still not enough African-American families in this position, we have a way to go there. In most instances we are only 2 maybe 3 generations into success.
2. We have different ideas of financial success. For some people success is not living from pay check to pay check. For others it's being able to afford nice things. A lot of us seem to be content with a nice place, nice ride and some nice gear. Don't forget the bling.
3. Making the sacrifice. Who really wants to bust their ass for 30 years, buy a modest house, drive the same car for 10 years, and not take a real vacation? And you know you have to get your baby that Wii and those sneaker skates for Christmas. Plus our situation is better than that of our parents. How dare we not enjoy our success.
The honest answer is we have to make sacrifices. We have a lot of issues in our community. This is one that the movement has not addressed. And I believe that we won't be able to make a real difference in our circumstances until we can sit at the table. It's not about greed or race, it's about finance. As long as they can exploit our black ass' at minimum cost.... they will. Look at the return they've gotten so far. No matter how much we want to display our "progress" in the last 30-40 years, the fact of the matter is that most of us are only a couple of steps up on the latter. And there are far too many of us still on the same step. Individual achievements are wonderful, they give us something to aspire to. But, it's past time for us to look at the models of Italian and Asian communities; after all hell we showed them. It's past time for us to unite. We have to realise that the civil rights movement has changed. We have to realise that this is a battle we have to be ready to fight on all fronts, not just in the courts. We have to be ready in the legislature and we have to be ready at the bank. We have to find a balance.
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