Oh Yeah, Happy New Year

I feel the way O.J. looks. This n&^%a has to really be out there. Does he not have black folk survival skills? I get that some people are just f$!k ups, but come on dude your about 60, get it together.

The new year has brought on a bit of a funk for this sister. It actually carried on from the end of the year, but this week has been a bit worse. My thoughts are more jumbled than my schedule. There are not enough hours left in the day for me to get a good night sleep... that's if i could actually go to sleep. All signals point to the fact that this sister has too much on her plate and not enough substance. I never pictured adult life being like this when I was 15. Damn I want that fantasy back. No one told me that in trying to make the world a better place, there may be potential for me to loose myself. Honestly, I can't just blame it on one aspect of my life. I work way too much, and have to learn how to say no when people ask me to do things. My strict Methodist background makes that very difficult. " When your working for the Lord, you can't say no" always seems to be playing in my head these days.

But I did something for myself, I went dancing last night. For the first time in way too long. I put on my red dress and my high heels, some of that sweet perfume that smells so good on me. I went down to the spot, got a table, ordered a drink, and listened to some good soul music. I still have my magic. And I had a wonderful time. I have to do that more often. I got up this morning and went walking, it's been way too long since I did that too. I didn't go to tutoring or dance practice today. I'm sure that I will feel guilty about that a little later. But, right now I feel really good. I'm going to get spa treatments today so I will be feeling even better in a little while. Danny has the best hands in the world, if he wasn't gay......... oooooooh. The things that man can do to your shoulders and back should be packaged and sold. But, I digress. I might even pull out my little black dress tonight. I feel like listening to some jazz.